Gone

In my grief
I have forgotten I have a friend
I have not remember there is you
Who are willing to wipe away my tears
In my grief
I have hurt you my friend
I run hiding in my own cocoon
And left you alone wondering where I am
In my grief
I ignore you calling my name
I have close my eyes for your need of a friend
And left you alone in your lament
After my grief
I look for where you are
But couldn’t find you anymore
Because you grew tired waiting for me

Daylight fades, darkness sets in.

As the sunlight slowly faded away the city lights flickered on, one by one.
Illuminating everything on the outside and casting a shadow on the inside.
As time slowly ticked past,the darkness inched closer and closer.
Spreading its shadows across the land.
My inner self comes alive.
As much as i struggle and curl underneath the blanket my fears come alive.
And slowly engulfs me from the inside.
And tears up the mask that i so successfully put on during the day.
Fears that torment me from the inside during the day comes alive as soon the light fades away.
And i am back into my den.
With a mind of its own, tormenting me every single night.
Sometimes i wished i was dead.
Surrounded by many,yet isolated and alone.
I try to reach out to people but succeed in grasping just empty air.
Struggling to keep my sanity.
I plunge myself into darkness.
For its the only place to hide.
To cope with all this.
I give up and cry myself to sleep.
It’s tiresome to want something you don’t have.
And each morning i wake with loneliness by my side.
Each day I walk with it’s presence in my footsteps.
Each night it lies hand in hand with my insomnia.
Perhaps i have become invisible?
Or have i become just an figment of imagination?
They cried on my shoulders and i soaked up their tears.
asking for nothing in return.
But when i need someone,where did they all go?

-Night is the hardest sometimes.. I will be doing good for months.. all it takes is one night to shatter the peace. Memories forever burned in my brain.

Heartstrings Played

It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you than you ever thought of me
Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your marionette
With heartstrings open and bared
With me left here still thinking what was false, what was trueS
o puzzling and so complex
I'm left to await another clue
On my heartstings you played
Each left with a loving memory
Yet I still have those questions
Do you ever think about me
I'm wondering why all the intrigue
Now why all of this mystery
Why am I left here hanging
Your the one that holds the key

Dream

Dream a dream to escape reality.

Your reality (My reality)

To escape your pain (My pain)

Ignore a world where everyone is blind and ignorant (We can't help being selfish)to the people around us.

Besides nothing beats imagination

It's better shutting yourself out pretending to be something (But really being n o t h i n g)

Create a world where everything is nothing and nothing is everything to you (To me)

Dream a fairy tale where the hours of the day last forever, but there's never really enough time.

Dream a dream to escape the life you hate (The life I hate)

Ignore what’s around you.

Dream a nightmare

I Cry

All men betray, all lose heart.
I don't want to lose heart. I want to believe.

Won't you come away with me tonight?
We can fly past the moon and the starlight.
It doesn't matter where you've been before on a night like this.
It doesn't matter where you've been before I'll love you like this.
I cry...
Can't you see, I won't leave.
But you have to open your eyes.
Here I stand, Take my hand.
Let go of the fear that you hold.
Don't throw your pearls to the swine tonight.
Don't let them take your innocence.
Just remember the times that I held your hand and kept you close.
Remember the times I held you up and now.
I cry...
Can't you see, I won't leave,But you have to open your eyes.
Here I stand, Take my hand
Let go of the fear that you hold.

Create in me a clean heart, oh God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from thy presence, and do not take thy holy spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of thy salvation and sustain me with the loving spirit. Sustain me with the willing spirit.

Identity

Identity of a person.

Identity signifies complexity.

Identity identifies with reality.

Identity is the bearer of all vanity.

How does a person identify with identity?

Love/Lust

Lust Leading Love
Adoration Aiding Attachment
Passion Proving Pleasure
Convenience Controlling Confusion
Frustration Fueling Failure
Hurt Healing Heartache
Envy Educing Ecstasy
Sex Sealing Seduction
Jealousy Jeering Joy
Love Leading Lust